Losing My Mind, "The Metamorphisis"

Aight I know its been awhile since I gave everyone an update on whats going on wit me and what the latest issue is that im dealing with and i apologize to the ones who visit here rather frequently..Promise it wont happen again.,lol but i been really busy working on this latest project as well as a mixtape to follow..I know sounds backwards, dont it? Usually most artist will release a mixtape before the project to get they buzz up, but if u know me, then you know i dont move to the same drummer as most...Im a man of a different breed...So with that being said, "Losing My Mind ,The Metamorphisis" is on its way...I been hard at work trying to get the perfect fit of tracks to reflect what this project means to me...Everyone is in need of a change in some shape,form or fashion..And this is no different. On this project I reflect on my past ,present and future with the likes of tracks like "The Break Thru", "Losing My Mind", and "My Life", just to name a few...With production by JD Riggz (HCM) and Vans Beats, there is a wide range of emotions on this joint. I been thru tough times just like everyone else and I cant sit down to create a party track or whateva the people want, just because they want to hear it.. I have emotions that need to be released out of me..Things to get off my chest and writing and creating to a soulful sound to me is theraputic...So far I am 6 tracks into a 10 track project so just a few more steps and im at where im going with it..So please, when its all said and done, lend me a ear and a open mind and vibe with it because i promise you that most will relate to each and every song presented...I would post a track or two on here but i would rather wait until they are all recorded and videos in line..that way , you all can get the full effect of it..So until then, stay tuned in wit me....

~Asap

Reality Aint Never Reality on TV.....NEVERRRR...lol

Lets roll!!!...Hahaha i gotta laugh cause I know this is one of all of our guilty pleasures...Watching reality TV...all kinds of shows,ok off the top, everyone on MTV, Realworld,Teen Mom,The Hills,Making the Band,College Hill,Flavor of Love...ok im done cause that was one of the worst...my bad, ugliest niccas to watch..lol..but i WATCHED that shyt...but what is it i like about watching these types of shows?? Cause it damm sure aint the reality of it..A camera in ya face everyday...Look what that shyt did to Jon and Kate..smh But i dont know what it is..for real..Cause some of these shows are straight noise in peoples ears..Screaming cats, whining dudes, some of em try to front like they got that killer in em but when it pops off they curl up like a pubic hair...Bad Girls Club??? what..that show right there is the 'GLOW'(yall know that old school female wrestling shyt).hahahaa...Huh??? oh naw i dont watch it....lmao...Dont mind me, i got females in the house...Im just saying..LOL its a recent reality show i had to LISTEN to...ok lets get back on track...Whats your favorite reality TV show? I do like a few...Like i liked the first few seasons of Making Tha Band...You know the rappers delight ones..Elliot Ness battling Jae Mills...Chopper, oh i cant forget my man Freddy..lol that was my dude right there...Keshia Cole's show was cool to AT FIRST...til Neffy and momma came along..Sorry Keish.No disrespect..but they some heathens..straight noise makers..lawd Yall know what???? I miss The Wire!!! aw man..but in all due respect, there are way to many..Come on T.O. got his own show? I want one...shyt..Hulk Hogan ugly ass big titty daughter...Kardashians..i mean damm hell yeah they look good but what is that show about???No life to it...but what i really cant stand and the reason why i started to write this blog is the acting that goes on in it...And they say its not scripted....taahhh..and And pigs fly....Come on... On almost every show someone has to show out...Like imma rep who i am or..sorry..where im from...and be getting they ass kicked..lol sorry that mighta been a low blow to a local joe...but seriously, i mean real recognize real and we can all see the bytch in you...So many tough girls too..On everyone, they pulling hair and talking tough as hell. But im bout done...Sportscenter bout to come on....hahahhaha!!! TV is ass...just like Radio Im GONE...

Asap~

Good -vs- Evil and the Forces Between...

"Oooohhh we living like we bullet proof, bang bang bang bang bang bang....Oooohhhh we Load em, cock aim and shoot, ohhhh we load em ,cock, aim and shoot...."(c) Raheem Devaughn...As I sit here and listen to the lyrics in this masterpiece, it got me to thinking about alot of different issues with todays society and our music. Here is a track talking bout issues in this world that WE ALL relate to, Poverty, violence, the economy and all of lives struggles in general..Classik music..then i listen to others and i wonder to myself, "what am i supposed to take from this song"?? Am i supposed to listen to how you have it all and i dont?, Am i supposed to take from it that i can have swag too or as yall say it, i can never have a swag like yours !!! Absolutely right jackazz..I dont wanna be like you. I want to upgrade myself to a higher level and i aint just talking bout the trees im hanging from (no insult intended)..Im talking about self worth, self respect...A lot of the "rappers" that are out now are what i like to call followers. Making music for the consumers and not for themselfs...I heard a song recently from a source i will keep anonmous and i sat back and literally laughed out loud...Everything was a reference to drugs, bitches and money, clothes, cars and all that material shyt...I can do this and I can do that type musik..SO WHAT..for real...Come on..we got bigger fish to fry homeboy..Are you blind to it? or just that dumb?...Dont get me wrong there is a lot of music that is considered classic or makes listening to it worthwhile...But it doesnt get the recognition it deserves..In order to really find it, you have to be searching, searchin, searching....Online, blogs, downloads and nothing on radio, TV, or in stores...So that goes unheard most times. A female friend of mine said that she doesnt even listen to rap musik anymore...Saying that its not like it once was..which is 10000% true..She was asking for the Tribes, De la Souls,Public Enemy, KRS1 to come back...And said besides MosDef, Talib, common and Lupe, she cant stand rap..Her exact words and I quote "does every song have to be either obnoxious bragging or drugs or guns? That got old sooooo fast." It certainly did babygirl... I miss the good music too..But we cant all be satisfied I guess... keep downloading....hahaaha , IM OUT

~Asap

"THE BREAK THRU"

Expose the truth to the young black youth.....

Grey Sky's Aint for Everyone......

My mood is fuked up yall..and i aint here to complain about a damn thang cause bottom line is im alive, healthy, gotta couple dollars in my pocket and my family is all good but still there are things that i wish i could change ,take back or just simply make better.. In my lifetime i have met and connected with some of the realest people and to be honest ,those people are probably just as close as they were then, as they are now but lets go to the famous quote "people change with time"..So true..But my mood is all about change and the frustrations that comes with change..Some things change for the better and some things just point blank simply "change"...I was sitting here a moment ago thinking on what the hell im gonna do about work,musik,life, and happiness..Well the happiness part i can deal with cause for the most part i am happy everyday i wake up...Kids smiling, wife is smiling and i woke up to see yet another day...But how about the other thangs that KEEP that happiness alive...My job suks ass juice thru a straw and the only thing that i can change about that is getting a new one, but whos to say that once i find a new gig, if in time imma get tired of that one too...I wanna work with the youth of the world, weither it be a counselor,mentor,teacher, big brother, whateva it is , i "think" i would be happy doing that...But what happends? i go out and inquire and look for a position like that and they either not paying enough, or got me working with mentally challenged kids or just dont have a position open or better yet and i love this one, "they require a degree"...Now i know plenty of people who are hands on with a position of this magnitude and dont have the credentials to do the job, but they getting paid for it...I coach pop warner football and deal with kids ages ranging from 12-15 and they respect me for being who i am..A young positive black man..and they love it..they joke and laugh wit me, but at the same time, they will come to me with a problem as well and thats voluntary..they dont have to do that, they just feel comfortable enough to voice it to me ..Whoelse can they feel that comfortable with other than a big brother or a counselor or mentor?...I fit that perfectly like a foot to an ankle sock, but i cant get paid for it!!!???? things that make u go hmmm...Awww man and i said to self that i wasnt gonna get on this musik thing but i cant help it...I hear all tha time "when u make it", yall are hot, different, man i need to work wit yall, yall gotta fresh sound and the latest and greatest, "yall are Triatholon rappers" unsure if i spelled that right but get my point....All of that and im still spending all my personal money to make it happen...Going off of my own instincts for this shyt and where is it gettin me???/..But i have to keep tellin myself 'i do it for the love of good muzik' which is true but im going broke doing it..But they say, you gotta spend money to make money.....Then there are the people from ya past that really make u go hmmm..i wonder what could have come from that..I may get in trouble for saying this but this is my world on here, there are people that i have feelings for that I cant act on...Imma happily married man but there are people that i look at like...damm what if...its real...and real is real..i cant do shyt about it...but think..and that thinking can eat at chu...but i have to man up and say....OH THA HELL WELL>>...lol

I love my life, just wish i could dictate it...But thats GODS job not mine.....Unclutter your life! (Simplify & eliminate the unnecessary so that the necessary can speak)....

~Asap

Guilty Pleasures......

Guilty pleasures are the little things that make life just a wee bit better. Of course, they're also the things you're not supposed to do, but if these pleasures make us so happy, what do we have to be guilty about??? Most times we do these things without a care in the world..Ignoring our conscience thats telling us this is wrong, dont do it, there may be consequences..but we dont care..and if we do care its not gonna stop us from enjoying this pleasure of choice. Some of us have guilty pleasures that arent really that major like, being addicted to bad reality TV shows, celebrity gossip or maybe even FACEBOOK..(lol) But then there are the major ones like if you have health issues and you still get that deep fried fatty food cause it taste so damm good, but u know its gon kill u, or cheating on ya special someone just to get that "fix"...there are alot of different guilty pleasures and they range from minor to major, big to small, but we all have them...I was thinking about what some of my GP's are and I tried to make sense of it as to why i get pleasure out of it...A few of them are major but i still do them without a care in the world...Cause it completes me..like the trees i smoke, the poison i drink, the people i see...Those things make me feel good, keeps me in balance and if i dont have or partake in these pleasures then im a little off for the day...Its crazy but its true..So ask yaself...Whats ya favorite guilty pleasure??? And can u do without it???(think about it)

~Asap

Our Youth Today....damm

Tha time is whateva and im sittin ,sippin and flippin thru tha channels and came across the new BET show "Frankie&Neffee"....pause, wait ,hold up a minute...You mean to tell me yall are about to argue,cuss,yell,scream,fight,smoke,kick,and all that, right in front of a army of kids?..Foreal tho, "i dont like him, and get tha fuk out and this and more of that" come on man!!! seriously, thats the reason why our youth is the way they are today cause no one is showing them how to be human, how to be stable, how to be sain...Now i understand its different strokes for different folks but come on people, its more than obvious that the majority of our young go thru a life just like this..Livining in these exact same conditions...Hearing all the hatred and fighting and cussing with no regards..and repeating it like its the thing to do..Just recently, a young 12 year old girl by tha name Camry McNight, was randomly shot in tha face, and has died from the injuries..with no regards...Killed..And there were 2 others that also were shot and so far luckily have survived the shots but damm um my prayers go out to her family,friends and loved ones. But i have witnessed one of many examples of how tha kids are being raised now a days..Momma aint raise no fool and my generation was raised by a different creed than whats being taught today..Scared that i would get a woopin for something i did and having the conscience of thinkin of tha consequences if i did somethin or was "bout to do"..havin enough sense not to do dumb shyt, i mean i DID some dumb shyt but not no shyt like whats going on today,,In todays society!! hell to tha naw.. things have changed and thats for certain...something things have changed for betta while others have been overlooked or pushed aside..Not helped or guided to better things in life...A lot of us should look ourselves in the mirror and ask ourselves, "What can I DO to change it??"..... R.I.P Camry McNight

"Who AM I"
~Asap