I was sittin up the other nite, i wanna say it was like 3 in the morning and i was thinkin to myself, "I need to find a hustle to support my other hustles". Meaning, i am spending a lot of time and money on things thats really not coming back in my pocket in the long run. Although it is a good thing to invest in self, its NOT a good thing to go broke doing so...Look i got 3 kids, well 2 and 1 on the way, a house, bills and luxury bills to take care of and im spending G after G on my love for making my own muzik. Its crazy cause i mean i do get a lot of love when i FIRST put something out but after that, the acknowledgement just simply disappears. I was telling my man that we should really take this muzik on the road and get some real authentic love. But, then i said, dammm thats more money going out the door. But its an investment, right?..yeah thats what i said...sounds like im wasting money on something that isnt getting the right push to begin with. Everything cost, so its just something i have to live with and deal with on the daily. On the flip side, the positive flip side, people dig it and i know this but the liking of my projects isnt cutting it in my mind...People say they gonna come out to support the show and never show, they say they like my videos and so on so forth, but to date, i have only 1 comment on youtube...1... Who in the hell is going to consider me and my muzik with no following? Im just saying.. Its not that i am complaining or bitching at the fact that no one else is pushing me, its just the mere pointless direction im headin in. No money in, but i keep putting money out..So there has to be something more that can be done on my end to make things pop. Working all day, home to take care of the home front, then muzik time. But it is what it is. Imma keep pluggin away but like i told a friend of mine, "im gettin to old for the bullshyt"..ya know? I know, keep going, keep doing ya thang, dont stop now....But when is this gonna show its benefits, huh????
~aSap
